On Food

Sure, I left for a short time. But did they have to go on and change everything?
They took away my sandwich counter, and I feel starved.

Ok, so technically it's still there - just not the times that I am able to get to it. It's closed up and getting clean once I walk up to it. It feels as if there is a slow-motion quiet going on. I look around and everything is newly named, yet still the same. How could they do such a thing, huh?

Ah, to feel as if you're entering a new world even though you are simply re-entering an old one..

The Leaves

Breathe in, breathe out. Because there is nothing else that I really know how to do at the moment. And perhaps all I've learned how to do in moments of past decisions, moments of panic, second guessing - not knowing - the only thing you can really do is nothing. Simply forget all those options, and put a new one on the table.

Because as much as it can seem frustrating, we just have to wait for those moments of realization to slap us across or face. They always arrive at the wrong time, too late and perhaps never *that* clear. But, they slap us in a caring, loving, gentle kind of way that lets us know we have finally gotten to that little point we were searching for all along.

Past

The things I have started that I never thought would end, have ended.
I experienced them and they came to an end. And there are certainly some things I never go the chance to do, and other things I never expected to happen, well, they happened. After all is said and done my overall outlook on that experience, and what I could do with it in the future... it's different.
Ok, sad fact. And, ok, I always could envision myself in these days thinking of what I was doing the year before.