say it

I don't know.
I had this feeling that I should write (type) up a new blog, but - I don't know what to say.
It is Halloween. And I am not out all dressed up with somewhere to go.
I can say that I don't really like Halloween and that is why I (don't) do it.
But, like always, there must be more to the story.
Maybe I do like Halloween...no I don't just think of all that dread I had when we HAD to dress up in elementary school...I was so excited for the day when I got to middle school so I was not forced to dress up on 10/31.
The thing is, there is always something in the thought of it all. The thought of Halloween and all of the cool, creepy tales and whatnot that go along with it. All of the excitement and folklore (dare I say) that is within the holiday.....I just never fell into place with it all.
I will have to find a holiday all my own, that I truly look forward to every year.
And I thought that I would eventually get to a point where I would stop dreading the fall because school was going to start. And I thought that I would find that in college. But, the past two 'come September's' I have dreaded fall. So sad, Autumn is so beautiful, if only the pressure of this one thing was gone...what would then fill its place? Something else to dread? Nothing?
How sad. The story of my life.
But who cares. Life goes on, I will get over it, I think that I am already actually.....