sono eccitata!

I am still ridiculously excited about 'blogging' (mostly because I had always thought of it as some foreign thing people do on the internet, then I looked into it) and I am still ridiculously excited about my study abroad program(s) (even if I cannot decide which one to go one, I figure it is a good problem to have :) and I have recently just started to get excited over the fact that David Cook, my AI fave, has just released his first single! It brings back memories of a mere few months ago when I was completely OBSESSED with him. I was a bit of a psycho, I will admit. But he made me feel so inspired. Oh, God I sound so absolutely cheesy and disgusting...but don't care! I mean, after all that/during all of that I made a decision to take out my guitar and practice, practice and to write, write some songs...and I started to and I wrote and then, like always, I got frustrated and stopped but...I have some sort of renewed perseverance to do it. And even if I have not exactly gotten back into the swing of practicing, I have written more ever since then, than I ever did... and I consider that an accomplishment...well if you want to call it an accomplishment. Mostly I am proud that I was able to stick with most of what I set out to do...I will get there one day. I am slowly (I know, pathetic me) realizing that most things in life just don't happen without effort. hmm, sad fact of life. But, point is I still have that hope for someday, which may not be the best of what I could think ... whatever. But going back in time and remembering what I was then, what I was thinking, what I felt - how passionate I felt - makes me feel so damn happy. :) Yes, happy is that not a lovely feeling?
I feel like I should be saying so much more about this, about all of my strange thoughts and how they were started and blah, blah but I think too much saying would be bad...the only thing that need to be reiterated is the fact that I felt I could go out and accomplish something I had always wanted to do, something ( I don't know what) made me think that I could do it, something made me actually put my pen to the paper, and my finger on the guitar...something. And I am so thankful for whatever decided to take over my brain... :)