"Don't Tell Me..."

I am wondering if it is OK, just ok, to know that you could be doing something better. I mean is it better or worse to realize your mistakes and know you could be doing something to fix them, yet you do not do whatever it is to fix them? … Or is it somewhat ‘better’ if you are in ignorance and do not do anything about it?

I mean, is it wrong/bad/evil to know you are doing something wrong, to know that there is a better way and you choose not to do the better? Out of fear and trepidation … or just pure laziness?

Well, you see this is my verbal inarticulateness. What I am trying to spit out is….Let's say, I know that I should be doing something like …. Oh, for example the whole 'I should study better' thing. Now, is it just ok ,that I know I should be spending my time more wisely and studying...If I am not actually participating in the act of studying more/better? Is just knowing OK? Is just knowing a 'step in the right direction?'

When does the line end for when you finally have to do something with what you are aware of for it to have any meaning? Or does the fact that I am not actually following with what I know make it all wrong? Because, in a sense, if I am not actually correcting my past mistakes I have not really learned my lesson, have I?

I mean, is just knowing something a little better than not? Is just knowing something better than – good enough- than not actually doing ‘it?’

Something that has been bothering me. I know, I read it over again and I only got an even bigger headache.

And, of course, it is never as simple as putting enough time towards studying. And it is something I don’t even know how to articulate. It just is….AHHH.

The thing is I regret things...I have read that makes me somewhat of a thinking person:

"Experience shows that someone with no regrets is someone with no inner inkling that he can do better. He cannot recognize his mistakes and remains attached to them, because he can’t see anything better ahead and so asks himself why he should give up what he has.”
- Carlo Maria Martini

And the thing is ... the surrounding text of this quote says that it is up to ourselves to correct what we do wrong. We must to grow and move on our journey, our life. Well, you could say that this answers my question...just being aware of how we should change does not really mean anything. We have to actually make the steps to correct ourselves...and then it means something, then it becomes profound.

Maybe all that this ever boils down to is the fact that I want some reassurance of that all I am doing wrong, is not so bad. Even though I know I should be doing more. ... I fail to take action.

"How you feel now will pass. Don't let it ruin your life."
-House